I recognize that I need to be strong all the time, but lately, I keep thinking about my grandfather. I miss him terribly, and several times a day, wonder how the world could go on without him. It makes no sense. Of course the world goes on. Of course we fight back tears and move forward. But it doesn't seem possible, at all, that the world could hold itself up when the foundation falls away. Nothing really makes sense, but it appears to be going on around me, with or without him. Even that frustrates and worries me. I just can't imagine it, but there it is.
I guess I'm just extra emotional, these days.